Truth.

Truth.

One of those words, every time I come across stops me dead in my tracks. I am so desperate to find the truth in life. In everything. Aren't all humans? Are we not all attracted to this idea of absolutes, of perfect truths that make total sense from all angles? Thoreau writes "Rather than love, than money, than fame, give me truth." Everyone in the world is searching for truth. This is why religion stirs up possibly more controversy than any other subject. Because people come to it in search of truth, and of a worldview from which they can base their entire existence off of. All because of the innate need for truth. It's ingrained in us. We want to know the reality of things. 

And then, as Christians, Truth is taken to a whole new level. We are told the Jesus is "the truth and the life." See that? Truth and Life. Right next to each other. They go hand in hand. Fully realizing the truth of Christ means fully having life. And only when we see the truth of Christ can we see the world through the lenses of God. Only when we see through the lenses of God, does all truth in the world become available to us. 

That is why I am so discontented with the belief that Christianity shrouds its believers in a cloud of delusion. Because that isn't what Christianity should be doing. I fear it often does. It scares me that often time believers blindly believe what the church, their fellow believers, and the nice little comfy Christian world we often surround ourselves with believes. 

That's not how it should be. 

I want to struggle with it.

I want to wrestle with it, think about it, question it.

Because I believe that is the only way to really find the reality of the Kingdom of God. Only when we question does God give us the answers. 

We absolutely cannot freeze our faith because, as Christians, we are really called to continue to find and seek truth and meaning. Rob Bell writes that we should "search for God, and experience God and try to get a handle on what the Christian faith looks like." 

I don't want to blindly accept anything. I owe it to Christ to search for the absolute truths of His Kingdom. I will not allow my faith to become stagnant. I want to actively pursue truth. 

Truth.

Countless thoughts for one five letter word. And countless more questions and answers to go along with it. Good. I hope I never stop asking questions.