Seattle Pacific or Baylor? Only God knows. And that's totally fine. I'm a big fan of pro/con lists. Mostly because I hate indecision and the beauty of pro/con lists is that they completely get rid of that. Right now I feel like I have to make the biggest decision of my life so far. College. As a senior, you get used to hearing that word about 28 times a day. I feel the closer I get to graduating, the more I don't know where I'm going, what I'm going to study, or how life is going to go. Despite all this indecision, I am completely at ease with things. And if you know anything about me you know this is a big deal for me. My whole walk with Christ, the big conflict has been that I can't accept that He has everything under control. I mean in the past I fought and argued and literally screamed at God about everything in my life that seemed out of control or even remotely indecisive. And then this year happens. Now more than ever, nothing has been in control, nothing has gone as I have expected or as it seems, and I couldn't be more content. Jesus knows what He's doing; I don't have to know the details. For the first time ever, I am totally cool with God being in control. I always wanted him to be but I couldn't even begin to let him until I let everything get out of my control. This is going to be a good trip now that I'm not trying to drive anymore.
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