Un-truths.

Lies. Probably one of the worst inventions of the enemy. I've done a lot of looking back at my life and my spirit is usually pretty alright. Except under one condition. Lies. Being deceived. Every time that has happened in my life I literally do not know how to function. I break down; I am a literal mess. My mother recently told me about the few times she has seen me literally stuck in a depression or gloomy state. I remember every one of those times we talked about and the sorrow and weight that were put on me. And then I looked back at the root of things. Every single time it was because lies or deceit was involved. And it made me wonder: what is it about lies that terrifies, angers, upsets humans so much?

Is it that we feel like we don't have control? that we can't grasp things because there is no solid foundation left? or maybe we don't know how to cope when another person has wronged us so. Maybe it's all of these things. Maybe it's none. But I think it has a lot to do with the fact that humans inherently have a want for justice. for truth. Those two things go hand in hand and when one of those is missing, so is the other. We hear "life isn't fair" all the time. And it isn't. Life isn't fair because it is filled with lies, with un-truths. I think thats one of the biggest struggles for man in life: fishing for truths, finding something true to live for, knowing absolutes, knowing an eternal justice. Truth is rooted in all of that. and when lies infiltrate and find their ways into our lives, something in us screams for justice, something in us hurts and feels an extraordinary amount of pain, of suffering. My worst fear is that I am living this life based on things that are not true, that are lies. Lies, "un-truths," are the basis of the enemy; they are the opposite of God, they are what we inherently fear most. aren't they?


(Photo by my friend Caitlyn)